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School needs to end, and soon before I explode. I have just recently been informed that it is going to take me 5 years to complete my degree. 5 years!! I don't want that. I want to be done, granted right now I'm just taking core classes and I'm not stressed about them. But they're going to be done in 2 weeks, and then it's all science. I have also been informed here recently that I can't take summer classes like I planned on doing. Instead of going to VUJC and getting Chemistry and College Algebra out of the way I now have to take them at USI. :( I love this place, but I hate the city atmosphere here... I want to be out in the country, riding four-wheelers, fishing, swimming in the pond whenever I want to and doing all the things that I could last summer... My plan was to move to Jasper and take summer classes at VUJC and work at the factory. Go home on the weekends and some weekdays even, and pass my classes with flying colors there. But VUJC doesn't offer the chemistry course I need. So that was instantly out of the picture, so I looked to Vincennes. They offer both courses I need, but at the same freaking time. I don't know why they would do that; it's stupid. So now my last option is taking them down at USI and since USI is 50 miles from my house it would be easier and with the way gas prices are rising cheaper in a way...

So taht is the news of that... in other news we got our apartment for next semester. It is as close to campus that you can get with the apartments and even on the second floor, so we have a balcony. We figured out the roommate situation, my current roommate and I are officially going to have a room together and then our suite-mate is going to have the stranger. I kind of feel bad for the stranger cause we all know each other, but I'm sure we will get along with her. It's not like we're going to shun her from us, we'll be friendly.
I have recently discovered how hard it is to let go... I am officially claiming moving out of my parents house. I know I should have claimed it when I actually moved out in August, but I went home every weekend first semester and up until spring break I was still going home every weekend. When spring break came around I realized that I needed to stop going home so I could 1. Save money and 2. Learn to be on my own. It's been hard instead of taking baby steps I just stopped going home cold turkey. I haven't been home in 2 weeks, and the only reason I went home 2 weeks ago was because I had to work at the factory; even then I didn't see my parents, they were in Florida that weekend. It's just hard; I miss them. The person I miss the most is Mamaw I haven't seen her in almost 4 weeks, and I am not comfortable with that. I am so close to my Mamaw she's not just a grandma, she's is my friend. I love her very much and I miss her so much. I call her three or four times a week and I almost cry every time. Oh well, gotta let go.
And also, what is up with all these pregnancies at Pike Central? I feel like there is a new pregnancy each day that I hear about just from my class, and pardon my language but it pisses me off. I have made my mistakes in the past, but I was still smart about it. Pike Central taught us all that. Maybe they just need to start handing out condoms to all the students. Granted that would promote sex, but at least they can't use the excuse of "Well we didn't have a condom" which I think is the worst excuse in the book. If you don't have a condom and you're not on the pill then just don't do it. That's your best bet there. They're not even going to school anymore because they are pregnant... what do they have going for them then? A "marriage" that will last till they are 25 or 26 and then end in divorce with him maybe paying child support and her with no career ahead of her because she wanted to be a stay at home mom? This is not the case for some, and some will have a wonderful life with they're "significant other" and props to them for it, but the chances are very slim. I'm constantly seeing or hearing about so-in-so is pregnant oh my God! I'm so over it, it's like its a new trend in Pike County or something, and I personally believe that something needs to be done about it. It's getting ridiculous, and we're getting an even worse reputation than we already have. Oh well I suppose.
Well I suppose that is all for now. Later!

Hates being the Mediator

I don't think I've ever been so put in the middle before... My roommate and our suite-mate are not getting along whatsoever right now; and that just sucks so much :( I don't know what to do, and what really makes it sucky is that I am friends with both. More my roommate then my suite-mate; but I don't have a problem with either of them. I'm being put in the middle like crazy, especially here recently. They throw snide comments back and forth,  and they're so rude to each other. I feel like my roomie is wanting me to take a side, but I don't have one.
The worst part about this situation is that we're all living together next year, and my roomie and suit-mate were supposed to live together, but they can't get along so my roomie now wants her and I to live together. So now the news has to be broke to our suite-mate... I hate this so much :( I'm not a hateful person; I don't hold grudges or judge anyone. I don't feel comfortable being rude to anyone no matter what the issue is. If there is conflict I avoid it!! We need to make a decision by this week on how to bring up the topic to suite-mate; but honestly the only things that we (roomie) has come up with are kind of mean and I don't want to be pointing fingers. I think that maybe I should just talk to suite-mate myself and break the news to her, cause I just don't want her and roomie to get into it. It upsets me so much that this is happening, but suit-mate will still be living with us; just either by herself or with a stranger. I just know feelings are going to be hurt; but I honestly think the best option is to talk to suite-mate myself and maybe explain the situation. :(

Bah, in other news (I hate that so much is going on emotionally right now) A guy that I was talking to but told me that he didn't want a girlfriend told me today that he is in a relationship with one of my friends. :'( I really got attached to this guy, first time I've let my walls down in a very long time and this happens. I told him I was happy for him and walked away. I couldn't handle it. I have no one to talk to (that I want to talk to at that) I just don't know.. I can't wait for school to be over so I don't have to be around this or worry about guys or anything.
I hope all is well with you. I hear that part of the school is going to the Hunger Games on Friday. I am going to the midnight premiere tomorrow night and am incredibly pumped for it. They are amazing books :)

Okay, rant time.

This is my limit. This week has sucked to the extreme. I know I have already posted once this week but I am just so pissed that I can't help but to rant and I can't rant to anyone or anything so blog it goes. People are immature. This is not my situation, this is a friends; my best friends at that and it just pisses me off so much that I can't even think straight right now!!! This guy that lived with her and her family just said some horrible things about them over Facebook (Number 1 reason I HATE Facebook so much!) I mean he has been living there since September for nothing. He doesn't have a job, doesn't do anything around the house, he is just the scum of the earth. And then he goes off and posts these horrible things about them on Facebook and you know what they do??? They finally grew some balls and kicked him to the street, which they should've done months ago!! All I've heard is from Facebook. She won't answer my phone calls nor my text messages. But then she goes off and gets on Facebook to answer their questions. It makes me wonder, am I really her best friend? Or does she just say that?? I would really like to know, but that won't happen. Gah!! I'm so pissed!!
I could not keep my mouth shut on this situation. So I took the liberty to tell him off. Telling him how much of a scum bag that he was. That he needed to go out and get a job and better himself before he gets himself killed. I then told him that he was immature for putting that on there. That he should've NEVER put something like that online for the world to see when they have done so much for him!! He has no respect whatsoever and he never has towards them!!! I think that is all, hopefully I'll find out more if she ever gets a hold of me.

When life gives you lemons squirt the juice in someones eyeballs.

This is topic of my week thus far (note that it is in fact Thursday) I am slowly but surely getting to the point that I am just stressed out! Mid-terms are next week!!! Spring break is the week of March 5, during spring break instead of going out and having fun like all the other kids, I am going to be doing two different research papers. One being 6-7 pages long and the other with a minimum of 10 pages. I HATE research papers!!!! They're never any fun, and picking out a topic for them just plain sucks! Plus for each of them I have to write a bibliography of the sources or whatever, I don't know how to go about doing that... It's just going to be extremely stressful, and especially with no help from my teacher (due to it being spring break and such) I will not know if I am doing it correctly.
On the plus side I will be finishing up my math for the semester next week. I look so forward to that because I will have more time on my hands :) on the downside, I start gym next week. Now don't get me wrong, I love to work out and being in shape; I just don't have time for it. Give me the summer and I'll be in pretty good shape, but with school it's just difficult.
Unfortunately I have come to the conclusion that I will have to complete my degree in 5 years instead of 4 like originally planned. :'( I don't want to do this, but it is the only option that I have with 1) my GPA being so low so far and 2) me not having the mental capacity to take God awful hard classes all at once. I just don't get it sometimes, and for most of these classes you need to get it then and now. Which just sucks. I am still going to try to apply for my junior year, but I have already accepted the fact that I might not get in.
In other news, well there really isn't much other news. I really needed to rant about school and maybe get rid of some of this writers block. I have found out though that when I bull crap a paper (like I did last week the night before it was due) I do a pretty decent job on it. Unfortunately I cannot do that with research papers considering, well you know the fact that you have to do research.
I hope your year is treating you well and I'm sure you are more then ready for spring break like I am :) have a good one!!

The more I learn about people, the more I like my dog- Mark Twain

Hello hello!! Here is an update on the wonderful world of Meagan :) Things have been going well so far, I have officially (three weeks into it) started my second semester of college. So far once again I am loving it, but this time I'm silently hating it. Although I must say, I have learned much more then I did last semester already. I'm really enjoying myself, and I think I have figured out a good way for me to study. I will be taking summer classes, but that is okay; I am kind of pumped for it. :)
Speaking of summer, this summer is going to be an interesting one already :) First off I am going to be helping coach a softball team with my friend Jaime and another girl from work. It will be interesting. I have always loved softball and this will help me get into shape, which I look forward to. Also Jaime and I work together, we have known each other for almost a year now and we are the best of friends. Well she is currently looking for a place to live, and with us working together she said that I could move in with her this summer. Now this could either go really well, or really awful. Out of all my friends only two of them I think I could live with, and that would be her and Sam. And Sam is very debatable. Jaime and I have talked this through, she said that out of all her friends I am the only one that she could live with. Which is a plus. The only thing that worries me is the fact that we will be working together... So we will be together all the time, but at the same time we keep our distance from each other and respect each others space. So in all honesty I think it could work out. But yea, I don't have much else to say.. this is kind of a short blog but oh well.
I hope all is well for whomever is reading this. :)

A penny for your thoughts???

Hello again!! :) Christmas break is almost come to an end and I am kind of sad yet really really happy :) I miss school sooo much!! I never thought I would say that though!! But then I'm sad cause I'm not going to be seeing my friends as much. I have loved being able to spend so much time with them, it has been great. I have been working at the factory once again this break. It has been nerve racking. The people there are ridiculous!! But I tolerate them.
I am kind of missing snow. I'm not the biggest fan of it, but considering it's 2 weeks into winter and we've only got a few dustings. It makes me a sad panda.
My friend and I are doing well, ish. She's going through a lot right now and won't tell me what it is... it's aggrivating, but she will tell me on her own time. She hardly talks to me right now, which is annoying but I realize she needs her space and I will be there for her when or if she wants me. That's pretty much all I can do.
In other news again my birthday is Friday :D only 1 more year of being a teenager after Friday!! It's such a weird feeling. I dread not being a teenager, you get away with a lot more this way. people don't really expect as much haha. That's a horrible reason to want to stay a teenager, but I'm going to use it :) But that is all for now I suppose. One day I will write a story for here... actually! I'm going to try to put my zombie paper on here next... If you read it please comment and tell me if it's good. I got an A on it and my teacher told me not to make any changes on it, which is totally awesome!! Tata for now!! :)